“A
soldier is not merely one who stands in the ranks and defends the right or the
left wing of the army, but he also who guards the gates—a service which, though
less dangerous, is no sinecure—who keeps watch, and takes charge of the
arsenal: though all these are bloodless duties, yet they count as military
service.”
I may be tempted to think that my particular
contribution to any shared effort must be the most essential, the one that everyone
else will depend on the most. It all comes from my vanity, from the mistaken
assumption that I can only become more when others become less.
Instead of being content with having
done my part of the good, I wish my good to be seen as being the greatest part.
It is really fame that I then seek, not virtue.
There can be no such posturing in
Stoicism, where a sense of the unity of Nature can only lead us also to a sense
of the unity of mankind. Each piece is essential and necessary, for the whole
proceeds from all of the parts, and all of the parts receive the benefits from
the whole. Absolutely no one needs to be better or worse, as long as they have chosen
to do their best in their own place.
I have always admired a certain
unspoken rule among most veterans, that however much they may reminisce about
their past struggles, they will avoid boasting and bragging about their
heroism.
They understand that the whole
battle, the whole campaign, and the whole war itself were something they did
together, the men who cooked the meals and dug the ditches as much as the men
who fixed their bayonets and charged the guns.
You will still find the loud ones,
of course, who insist on telling their tales, and the others will usually sit
in silent shame while gritting their teeth, embarrassed that one of their own
is only thinking of himself. I have always found inspiration in that sort of
noble solidarity.
I was always confused when a sports
team claimed victory after a close match, and all the credit for winning the
game was given to the fellow who managed the most impressive play, or the
fellow who scored the last winning point with only seconds to spare.
Yet was not every point earned, or
every point for the opponent denied, or every inch of ground held equally
important? The game would have been lost without the first score as much as
without the last, and the mundane work was just as critical as the spectacular.
Perhaps those who deserve credit are
precisely those who do not insist upon it, because they do not insist upon
themselves. The unknown soldier can possess glory as much as the decorated
hero.
Written in 6/2011
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