This
is the chief thing: Be not perturbed, for all things are according to the
Nature of the Universal; and in a little time you will be nobody and nowhere,
like Hadrian and Augustus.
In
the next place, having fixed your eyes steadily on your business, look at it,
and at the same time remembering that it is your duty to be a good man, and
what man's nature demands, do that without turning aside.
And
speak as it seems to you most just, only let it be with a good disposition and
with modesty and without hypocrisy.
—Marcus
Aurelius, Meditations, Book 8 (tr
Long)
I become frustrated with the world
when my own estimation is out of proportion, when I make more of things or less
of things than they actually are. If I magnify the weight of a circumstance or
diminish the role of my responsibility, I am no longer working with the order
of Nature, but rather against it.
No burden is ever so great as to be
overwhelming, just as no opportunity is ever so small as to be insufficient.
What has come to pass is as it is meant to be, and I can remember that whatever
seems so powerful now will soon pass away with all other things.
Providence is the great equalizer, putting
all things in their place, because while emperors like Hadrian and Augustus
seemed mighty once, we will all come to our rest in exactly the same way.
Knowing this, nothing needs to be
exaggerated or distorted, so I can rest content with pursuing a simple and
steady path. Nature does not ask for anything too complex or disturbing; the
demands of virtue will only appear impossible when my own thinking has gotten
in the way.
A part of such a hindrance in my
twisted judgment is when I confuse the mere act of doing what is good with all
of the diversions and attachments I falsely assume must go along with it. I do
not need to impose indignation or resentment on virtue. I do not need to be
puffed up with my own vanity when I pursue virtue. I do not need to worry about
how virtue may or may not appear to others. Any of those additions will, of course,
make it cease to be virtue at all, much like over-salting a dish will always ruin
it.
A good will, humility, and sincerity
are essential to staying on that path of a good life, and malice,
arrogance, and deception have no place in the order of Nature. If I only look
rightly, I can see the difference between the virtuous man and the imposter.
The fellow who is all about the saying becomes deficient in the doing, by
shifting attention and focus from the purity of the deed to the profit of his
circumstances. He exaggerates himself when he worries more about feeling good than doing good, and in doing so upsets his own relationship with the
harmony of Nature.
All things are meant to be in their
rightful place, in a proper proportion to one another. The confusion in my own
mind will be the only hindrance.
Written in 1/2008
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