If
you find in human life anything better than justice, truth, temperance,
fortitude, and, in a word, anything better than your own mind's
self-satisfaction in the things which it enables you to do according to right
reason, and in the condition that is assigned to you without your own choice—if,
I say, you see anything better than this, turn to it with all your
soul, and enjoy that which you have found to be the best.
But
if nothing appears to be better than the deity which is planted in you, which
has subjected to itself all your appetites, and carefully examines all the
impressions, and, as Socrates said, has detached itself from the persuasions of
sense, and has submitted itself to the gods, and cares for mankind—if you find
everything else smaller and of less value than this, give place to nothing
else, for if you do once diverge and incline to it, you will no longer without
distraction be able to give the preference to that good thing which is your
proper possession and your own.
For
it is not right that anything of any other kind, such as praise from the many,
or power, or enjoyment of pleasure, should come into competition with that
which is rationally and politically or practically good. All these things, even
though they may seem to adapt themselves to the better things in a small
degree, obtain the superiority all at once, and carry us away.
But
to you, I say, simply and freely choose the better, and hold to it. But that which is useful is the better. Well then, if it is useful to you
as a rational being, keep to it. But if it is only useful to you as an animal,
say so, and maintain your judgment without arrogance. Only take care that you
make the inquiry by a sure method.
—Marcus
Aurelius, Meditations, Book 3 (tr
Long)
Few
things in this life have given me greater joy and comfort than the opportunity
to reflect on who I am, and why I am here. I have learned that I am given a
mind so that I may discover what is true and good through my own reasoning. I
can knowingly rule myself, and need not just blindly allow myself to be ruled.
At the
same time, few things discourage me as much as the bickering and bullying that
can sadly come with the life of the mind. Ideologues try to rigidly impose
their own thinking, and demagogues confuse philosophy with sophistry.
This is
perhaps one of the reasons I have always felt at home in the company of
Stoicism. The good Stoic, the one who pursues not merely the name but the task,
does not insist upon his own way, and he does not impose his own rules upon
others. He may come to know with great depth and certainty how to distinguish
between what is true and false, and between what is right and wrong, but he
also understands that he cannot force anyone else to understand. He knows that,
however long and hard the road may be, we must all come to understand for
ourselves.
Bagehot,
in The English Constitution, said
that the Crown in a constitutional monarchy did not have the right to dictate
or to demand, but rather “the right to be consulted, the right to encourage, the
right to warn.” Though obviously in a rather different context, I suggest that
the true philosopher has much the same rights. He will feel a duty to offer his
guidance along the way, but he will not tell us what we must think or decide.
I know
it seems an old and hackneyed phrase, but we do still use it for a reason: you
can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make him drink. Indeed, you can show a
man the truth, but you can’t make him think. Socrates understood this.
Marcus
Aurelius follows in this same spirit. If I can think of anything more
beneficial than the Stoic life, then I should by all means follow that other
life. He asks only that I be sure I have made the most reasonable decision.
Much as St. Thomas Aquinas argued, make certain you always follow your
conscience, but also make certain your conscience is always informed.
Do I
have good reason to think that the life of pleasure, power, or praise will make
me complete and happy? If so, life should be lived that way with total
commitment. Do I have doubts, however, that this is really the best life? Have
I noticed how these things may seem helpful at some times, but can also become
deeply harmful at other times? Might I suspect that there are greater goods to
guide the way? Then I must surely reconsider the priorities I have set for
myself.
I only
need to think this through for myself, and not merely do what the world tells
me to do, in order to see that pleasure, power, or praise are inferior to
virtue, and that they will only become good or bad when they are ruled by
prudence, justice, temperance, and fortitude. My own honest estimation will
show me the way.
Once I
have made my decision, one way or the other, I must stand firm with it.
Compromising the higher for the lower, or making excuses for the inferior at
the expense of the superior, hardly shows a genuine respect for what I claim to
value. If I wish to have it both ways, it becomes clear that I didn’t really
know what I wanted to begin with. If I wish to sell out prudence for
thoughtlessness, justice for greed, temperance for lust, or fortitude for
equivocation, I am deeply confused about who is the rightful master.
It will
be frustrating, but ultimately liberating, for me to make my choice. I must
decide if I am a man ruled by character, or a beast ruled by gratification.
Written in 1/2005
I just began reading this book. There is something I cannot ignore “I must decide if I am a man ruled by character or a beast ruled by gratification”. Indeed it comes down to this. Should I let myself indulge in passions of the flesh and thoughts of the flesh, or by seeking daily a divine calling, polish the faculties of my mind and my character.
ReplyDeleteI have concluded that following a divine calling day to day, it will transform me into that which I seek.
I know the struggle all too well!
DeleteAs always, your mileage may vary, but it helps me to not think of the spirit and the flesh in opposition to one another, but as the latter being in service to the the former. The lower is subsumed into the higher, such that a passion is perfected through an understanding.
In other words, as Epictetus or Marcus Aurelius might suggest, let the desires say what they have to say. Then employ your judgements to determine what they might mean. Prudent actions can then follow.
You were formed by Nature to have instincts and emotions, and they are a necessary part of you. Above that, you also have your Divine part, the part that rules. I too easily forget how God gave me thoughts to rule my feelings, not feelings to enslave my thoughts.
Sorry for the rambling! It is only because I personally relate to your comment, and I am grateful that someone bothered to read the original reflection. Perhaps I should simply say that you are not alone, and that I am happy to find a kindred soul.