There
are four principal aberrations of the superior faculty against which you should
be constantly on your guard, and when you have detected them, you should wipe
them out and say on each occasion thus:
This
thought is not necessary.
This
tends to destroy social union.
This
that you are going to say comes not from the real thoughts, for you should
consider it among the most absurd of things for a man not to speak from his
real thoughts.
But
the fourth is when you shall reproach yourself for anything, for this is an
evidence of the diviner part within you being overpowered and yielding to the
less honorable and to the perishable part, the body, and to its gross
pleasures.
—Marcus
Aurelius, Meditations, Book 11.19 (tr
Long)
To think
of all the grief I could have spared myself, and all the grief I might still spare
myself, if I only take the time to consider what I am going to think, what I am
going to say, what I am going to do.
This
does not require the superhuman effort I may think it does; it is in many ways
the least I can do, while still one of the most important things I can do. The
greatest dangers to my own character will be found at rather unassuming points in
the journey, and I will be able to maintain the course when I keep in mind the
most basic awareness of what is good.
There, I
suspect, is one of my biggest problems, in precisely making the whole affair
much bigger than it needs to be, and more confusing than is necessary. If I remember
that one and only requirement of living the happy life, of living in virtue
according to Nature, and placing all other things relative to that goal, then I
won’t get lost so easily. It will only take a brief moment of reflection to
know what I must do, casting aside all other diversions.
Are my
thoughts completely ordered toward the highest human good, or is my judgment
distracted by misleading impressions? Remember, my thinking is mine to rule,
and does not need to be enslaved by circumstances.
Am I
disposed in such a way that I always think of how I am in solidarity with my
neighbor, or am I tempted to division and conflict? Remember, there is nothing
I must ever do that requires my own good to be at the expense of the good of
another.
Am I
speaking clearly and honestly, or am I hiding behind various forms of flattery,
duplicity, and treachery? Remember, whatever comes forth from me should directly
reflect the truth that is within me.
When I
feel doubt or guilt about how I have chosen to live, do I work first on
improving myself, or do I simply look the other way, vainly hoping that the
inconvenience will disappear? Do I recognize the disorder within me?
To keep
on my guard against the weaknesses in my soul, to strengthen my power to think,
speak, and act well, doesn’t require a whole regiment equipped with a vast armory. It
requires only care and concern at each step along the way.
Written in 6/2009
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